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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Dear Kurt, Well, i've been feeling much better these last two days (yesterday and today). :-) *sigh of relief* Here's what I wrote last night in my journal:
Well, Eli is a sweetheart, as I have written many times about her, so today she took Bertha and I to talk to her psychic friend Ferouzeh. Well, that really helped bring my energy up because i've been feeling so "low in batteries" in the days previous to today. :-) Ferouzeh told me that the reason why I, as I told her at the beginning of my 30 minute therapy session, feel rejected & depressed is because I'm "bored" with my life. She told me tht I shouldn't be "making [myself] small, [I] should break ouf of [my] shell." She recommended that I "go out and walk 15-20 minutes, cut down on the sugar, drink less milk (at least every other day), be more active." I told her about my "infamous" anxiety attacks and she told me to do this breathing exercise "when I wake up and before I go to bed" and do the same thing when I feel angry, just step away and go to my "own space." I asked her other personal questions such as "why [Monica] is so jealous of me?" and she answered that she simply "wants to be the baby" since I told her that i'm the youngest. Speaking of family, she says i'm "ashamed" of them. Hmm... how & why? Her and I couldn't explain. Anyway... Prudence: "She wants something from me, like close contact or perhaps live near or with me." "Hmm..." is all I can say. [...] *I wrote personal stuff here* We had dinner around 5 p.m.; Claudio made steak with tomato and red bell pepper sauce on it, which was good. I tried to use to Eli's laptop but it wasn't warming up too well. Well, today is/was the first day of summer, so that's why I'm laying on my bed shirtless almost baking. :-S I told my Mom about my therapy session and she was happy. I guess this is a new beginning for me: NO MORE STRESS, DEPRESSION, BEING INDOORS, SUGAR, AND ANXIETY!! I'll sleep well tonight. :-) Anyway... That is all for now. Love to everyone,
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